Two Little Birdies :)

This is a quick oil pastel of some colorful flowers and trees and birds.
Nothing too fancy or detailed, just wanted to do something different for once :)

Messing around.

so these are just a few pics I was playing with. I wanted to basically test out the
Soft Pastels I bought a while back.. Nothing fancy here.. just an image :)

Den :)

Marilyn Portrait :)

So a friend of mine wanted a pic of Marilyn Monroe. I did this from a pic I found on the net. it was one of
my favs of her. So this is my finished product. ( Actually the eyebrows have more definition in them now)
But she was extremely happy with it and that's all that matters :) Hopefully I'm on my way
to learning more about art : )

Just a quick Collage of some recent drawings of mine :) I have a lot of new ideas, so hopefully I'll be doing more soon :)

New picture last night :)

Last night I was feeling rather experimental with my own abilities. I normally draw from other things rather than my own mind. This is something straight from me :) I think I'm kinda pleased with it, other than the fact that it's rather weird and creepy. I kinda like weird and creepy though! I can't deny that :) Part of the new changes I'm hoping will bring me into drawing a lot more! I'm pretty excited about that : )

The Beginning!

So today has brought to me the ideas and feelings I need to move on with my life! I had a major breakdown today for the better!

I've called out for help today! Help that I so desperately need. I'm well over-weight and gaining! It's been the result from inactivity, and new found laziness! Qualities that clash with my idea of who I really am.

I have spent the last 6 years of my life gaining weight and talking about who I used to be. I haven't stopped until today to look at what I've become! Saying this draws the tears out! Is it self realization that has me upset or the job I have in front of me to change myself into the person I desire to be! Maybe it's the combination of both topped with Self pitty! Oh it's a sad story I must say, I've wasted the last 6 years of my life saying NO to things that would otherwise put me in glory! I've backed down from everything to outings with friends, shows with my boyfriend! Trips! Everything I would have loved to do!

I'm ashamed of myself. At this point in my life I don't want to be seen by anyone. It's so criminal to be this way when I enjoy life so much! I enjoy nature, I enjoy friends and meeting new people! I have canceled meetings with new found friends because of this!

So today I sent an email to 4 of my best friends! My mother, Boyfriend, and two of my close dear friends! I asked them for help. No more random eating binges together and hopefully more activities that will have me moving. In the email was also an apology for being so neglectful over the last few years, I am sorry!

But before this 6 years turns into 10 or the rest of my life, or even the end of my life, I need to make the changes necessary to live how I truly want to live! I would imagine this is how smokers and drug addicts feel when they want to quit!

Lord knows I'm not quitting! I'm not giving up! I have to do this. For everything that is good in the world I know I can do this! This is for my life! I need this! Good Luck to me!!